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May. 20th, 2014


Last night I dreamed that I was visiting my mother and aunt at my grandmother's old beach cottage*. Somehow I had lost track of time and had to convince them that I needed to pack and leave for the bus to Logan Airport that day, Monday, May 25th, because I had a flight to catch. Somehow, I had forgotten what the date was and had assumed it was... well, the 19th. There also was the sad feeling that I hadn't spent enough time at the beach on my vacation, and the urge to dash off to the beach instead of packing.

Maybe it's because I can't visit the beach this year -- things are just too uncertain because I don't have a job and might need to be available for interviews -- and didn't last year because I had my dissertation to finish.

Also, for some reason, there were cats in the kitchen, trapped by a baby gate, because no anxiety-based dream is complete without a surreal element.

* Grandma left it jointly to her kids. Since two of them didn't live in the area and one had a beach cottage of his own, they decided to sell it several years after my grandmother's death. Sadly the developers who bought it tore it down to build something with multiple stories.

Feb. 12th, 2014


In the game Fire Emblem: Awakening, they let you name and customize* the tactician character, with the possible intent of creating a character you can empathize with. I think it's working, since last night's dream involved Fire Emblem with me taking on the tactician's role and trying to decide whether to recruit a (totally made up by my subconscious) mage whose rival was up to No Good and he was more interested in leaving the bad guys in a fit of pique and challenging/undermining said rival than in helping us.

I'm really enjoying the game, but maybe I need to take a step back and play something else.

(Given my normal play-through philosophy, of course I wanted to recruit him. I have most of the default cast available**.)

* Within limits. You can choose name, gender, hair color and style, birthday, best and worst stats, and have a choice of 3 voice actors, but, say, the Avatar's skin color is fixed.
** I missed Donnel the villager, and still haven't gotten Olivia's kid because both she and Gaius (the only single man left) are under-leveled and die in any battle I put them in. I suppose I can just haul them off in the corner and have Olivia just dance every turn, then recruit the kid with Chrom... especially given how ridiculously over leveled I am and that I'm playing on Casual Mode (which means any defeats of my units on the battlefield are presented as severe wounds and retreats, not deaths, so I can lose units in fights without losing them for good).

Apr. 7th, 2013

(not) Sweet Dreams

I don't know what it says about me that I was dreaming about video games last night. Specifically the part of Skyward Sword where you have to collect the plot coupons goddess's tears while avoiding the invincible enemies. Which... well, I've played the last two DS games which basically involve the same premise every time you need to advance the plot, but for some reason the damn thing stressed me out. Enough that I dreamed that I'm helping my sister play Skyward Sword*, and the damn game randomized the location of the tears so I couldn't help her.

I don't even know what this means in terms of anxiety dreams, but it's better than having to repeat high school classes for some reason, usually with a side of 'can't get into my locker' and 'I don't even remember my schedule', which are my normal class of anxiety dreams. Why I have these now when I never got them (or remembered them) in high school is a mystery. Or why they are high school dreams, and not set at UNL or Cornell and involving college coursework/teaching things...

Then again, my dream the night before that involved a singalong of Jonathan Coulton's "Redshirt" with [plurk.com profile] dolphinacorn and a chorus of Miscellaneous Friends while I was picking up groceries, so maybe I should just go with it.

* When we were in middle school, Jenn or Ben would be the one playing and I'd watch, usually with a map from the strategy guide to help. Even if technically Ocarina of Time was my game, I could never get past the fire boss on my own.

Feb. 13th, 2012

Today's weird dream...

I had to personally negotiate a peace between the three factions in Starcraft, because there was a fourth set of people showing up with weird technology and kicking everyone's asses. Also, I could fly, had psychic powers and Fullmetal Alchemist-style circleless alchemy that I could use to heal people. And I suspect the place where we were was old Orion from the setting developed at [info]sabra_la_tau, but there were also giant flowers and spheres of water that held ancient alien cities.

I don't even know; my subconscious, man.

Feb. 5th, 2012


Had a dream that my mother, my adviser and I were eating out together. I don't know why.

In other news, I also had a dream where I was the castle warder at Cair Paravel in Narnia the day that the Pevensies left for their world (unintentionally). Like a lot of dreams where I'm someone else, there's this sort of split-personality thing; I-the-dreamer knew that the High King and his siblings were never coming back, and that Narnia was heading into a dark age/invasion, but the character just assumed something happened on the road, and they would be back soon.

If I cared more about CS Lewis**, it would make an interesting fanfic to write about what happens when the Kids from Another World (tm) go home. [livejournal.com profile] swan_tower linked a Narnia fanfic that told more about how the Pevensies established themselves as Kings and Queens of Narnia beyond 'defeated the White Witch and had Aslan's blessing'*, but it would be interesting to see the other end: what are these fantasy realms like from the native POV, rather than the kids who stumble into it?

* This probably was what prompted the dream.

** I used to when I was in grade school, but, man, The Silver Chair and The Last Battle just depressed me. I'd try to apply the concept to some of the anime series that feature 'person from another world', but of the only two I know well (Escaflowne and Fushigi Yuugi -- I've also seen the El Hazard OAV), both seem to have a set-up designed for the person from our world to go home at the end.

Feb. 6th, 2011

My dreaming brain is cynical...

And also needs to get the hell out of fanfiction.net.

I don't mind dreaming about plot ideas. But ideas where dream-me is typing up a review with 'You haven't seen the rest of this series and aren't delivering what was promised anyway, and YOUR FIC IS BAD AND YOU SHOULD FEEL BAD'... no. Seriously. When you dream about snarking at bad fiction, it's probably time to turn off the computer before bed.

This fic doesn't exist and I'm glad... but now you have to suffer with me )

So, dear writer-brain-subconscious. If you are going to give me dreams with Utena characters, can they stay in-character* and consistent with the setting? I mean, I know how much I love eye-rolling at Terrible Ideas, but I don't want to do it in my sleep.

* Okay, Touga taking advantage of the situation to further his own goals and Anthy being cryptically faux-submissive are pretty IC.

Nov. 1st, 2010

Another storytime dream...

This time I get epic A:tLA AU fanfic for my dreams. Probably because I decided against doing NaNo.

So, it's set sometime between when Toph shows up and Appa gets bison-napped.  )

Oct. 10th, 2010

Interesting dream...

So, I got another one of those dreams which played out like a movie.

Thankfully, the story seems more suited to a visual medium, so it won't disrupt my NaNo plans )

Apr. 21st, 2010

Odd Dreams and Fanfiction

So, why the hell do my naps involve dreams about Harry Dresden and Thomas getting into trouble? I had this dream last afternoon, so keep in mind I'm working from memory and trying to make some narrative out of something that wasn't too descriptive.

Kind of Long, but surprisingly, no Dresden Files spoilers )

(Not sure if this is better or worse than the idea about Mother Summer and Mother Winter from the Dresden-verse being the original Titania and Mab from the Toby Daye books, having gone on to greener pastures, and that's why the fae in Toby's world have missing royalty. Definitely better than crack!shipping Harry and Marla Mason based on the fact thy have comparable luck with romantic relationships.)

* Considering it's Dresden-verse canon that Dracula was influenced by the White Court to tell humans how to fight the Black Court, (and White Court members own interests in the porn and horror movie industries) it's probably not unheard of.

** So, aside from the 'weird other world', it's an ordinary Tuesday for Harry. Also, based on Thomas and Harry, the dream had to take place between Books 11 and 12.

May. 10th, 2009

Weird-Ass Dream

So, I had a weird dream this morning. Anyone who wants to try to interpret it is welcome.

Read more... )

Feb. 20th, 2008

Stephen Colbert was Right!

Last night I had a dream that there was a bear in my bed that was threatening to break my arms and legs if I didn't vote for the right person. (I don't think it liked my answers.)

Stephen Colbert was right about bears...

Nov. 4th, 2007

Writing (mostly)

Amusement is hearing one of the professors say 'I don't know what he was smoking' with regards to a non-Cornell astronomer's forecasts about what a future instrument could do in a decade.

(I'm not naming names here -- because EVERYONE in astronomy knows one another. Seriously.)

Spoilers for Avatar 3x08 -- the one that airs in the US next week )

More writing stuff )

Oct. 30th, 2007

What dreams may come...

So, I've been on anti-aniexty meds for about a month now. It's a bit annoying, since it seems like I now need an extra hour of sleep, even if I take them near bedtime. Of course, that could just be grad school.

Apparently they also make one have more vivid dreams. I've had three dreams in the last week

Tripping out on antidepressants )

The funny thing is that I can trace the dreams to what I was thinking about before bed -- either a book I was reading, something I did on the net before bed, or planning fanfic. Normally my dreams are weirder than that.